black berry messages are interesting. i like getting them and chatting real time with people. i generally dont open them without seeing who it's from. i can do that by going to the message spot on the phone, and i refuse to access it from the bbm icon because it marks the message automatically opened. if it's from sandra, i usually ignore it for a while and then answer. she's the only one i'll do that to because otherwise you're stuck in the vortex of her treadmill conversations about being so hard done by or else she's making you pack your bag for a guilt trip. either way she's fishing for something to do and in the meantime laying the foundation for the oodles of guilt she'll pile on you for not walking with her.
today i got a bb message from the sil. i could only read "wanna" in the message centre. i didnt open or acknowledge it.
of course i'm sitting here feeling rude and passive aggressive and immature for not opening it. there's this part of me that wants to open it and make everything ok (the old tracy) and the other part of me that doesnt want to play into the stupid games that seem to go on in the family. and i havent quite forgotten how she basically left the conversation in limbo, which inclines me to think that i dont owe her my time, attention, or response.
i hate feeling guilt over it...it's undeserved guilt. i really havent done anything wrong.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
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black berry messages are interesting. i like getting them and chatting real time with people. i generally dont open them without seeing who it's from. i can do that by going to the message spot on the phone, and i refuse to access it from the bbm icon because it marks the message automatically opened. if it's from sandra, i usually ignore it for a while and then answer. she's the only one i'll do that to because otherwise you're stuck in the vortex of her treadmill conversations about being so hard done by or else she's making you pack your bag for a guilt trip. either way she's fishing for something to do and in the meantime laying the foundation for the oodles of guilt she'll pile on you for not walking with her.
today i got a bb message from the sil. i could only read "wanna" in the message centre. i didnt open or acknowledge it.
of course i'm sitting here feeling rude and passive aggressive and immature for not opening it. there's this part of me that wants to open it and make everything ok (the old tracy) and the other part of me that doesnt want to play into the stupid games that seem to go on in the family. and i havent quite forgotten how she basically left the conversation in limbo, which inclines me to think that i dont owe her my time, attention, or response.
i hate feeling guilt over it...it's undeserved guilt. i really havent done anything wrong.
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