back up and running.
checking on shit, feeling more grounded.
it's funny how something as trite as the internet can leave you feeling unconnected (pun?). if mine is down, i get pissy. like WTF?? i need it. it's my fix. i think it's deadlier than meth or ciggies...harder to break.
so the boys are on highway 36. they claim it's better. no sooner crossing the border a big semi passed them going south in their northbound passing lane. honestly? that's news i could do without on the eve of my 5th anniversary.
yeah, it's been five years. incredible when i think of it and how much i've changed since then and how my circle has expanded and subtracted and how i'm talking to and not talking to folks i did 5yrs ago.
i just looked at my cousin's wedding pic and her wedding was april 15th/06...and i thought about her at my wedding and how we conversed and how things were not like that one year later. like at that moment, 50 weeks later, she would be engaged and married all at once. amazing. and when i look at them and see their marriage, i'm so happy for them. she deserves to be happy after years of misery with a complete douche. it's just funny how things happen so quickly and how we can be at one place thinking all is well or right and then all of a sudden something happens that changes our lives within a year. for better, for worse.
i got ch a card for our anniversary a few years ago. i dont even remember which anniversary it was, but i never ended up giving it to him for whatever reason. this year i was txting rb and he was going on that ch was looking for an anniversary present for me. well, fuck! i never intended to get him anything. i was just hoping that we'd actually follow through with it and go for sushi as we discussed weeks ago and then get together with the seitzies and some other dudes and have drinks. you know, the usual...but at least spend some time together enjoying food we both enjoy.
but i got news from rb that he was looking for a present and despite my protests of "i have everything i need" or "i didnt get him anything" (which was true), rb claimed that ch got me something and was determined to give it to me. i went to walmart (GLAMOUR!) and bought him some undershirts and socks. i know, terribly boring, but WHAT ELSE do you give someone who has everything and wants for nothing? i just so happened to open the mail tonight and moore's had sent me a $50 gift card for being a loyal shopper and i threw that in his card, too. honestly, both he and i have everything...what else could there be needed?
materialism is just ridiculous.
back up and running.
checking on shit, feeling more grounded.
it's funny how something as trite as the internet can leave you feeling unconnected (pun?). if mine is down, i get pissy. like WTF?? i need it. it's my fix. i think it's deadlier than meth or ciggies...harder to break.
so the boys are on highway 36. they claim it's better. no sooner crossing the border a big semi passed them going south in their northbound passing lane. honestly? that's news i could do without on the eve of my 5th anniversary.
yeah, it's been five years. incredible when i think of it and how much i've changed since then and how my circle has expanded and subtracted and how i'm talking to and not talking to folks i did 5yrs ago.
i just looked at my cousin's wedding pic and her wedding was april 15th/06...and i thought about her at my wedding and how we conversed and how things were not like that one year later. like at that moment, 50 weeks later, she would be engaged and married all at once. amazing. and when i look at them and see their marriage, i'm so happy for them. she deserves to be happy after years of misery with a complete douche. it's just funny how things happen so quickly and how we can be at one place thinking all is well or right and then all of a sudden something happens that changes our lives within a year. for better, for worse.
i got ch a card for our anniversary a few years ago. i dont even remember which anniversary it was, but i never ended up giving it to him for whatever reason. this year i was txting rb and he was going on that ch was looking for an anniversary present for me. well, fuck! i never intended to get him anything. i was just hoping that we'd actually follow through with it and go for sushi as we discussed weeks ago and then get together with the seitzies and some other dudes and have drinks. you know, the usual...but at least spend some time together enjoying food we both enjoy.
but i got news from rb that he was looking for a present and despite my protests of "i have everything i need" or "i didnt get him anything" (which was true), rb claimed that ch got me something and was determined to give it to me. i went to walmart (GLAMOUR!) and bought him some undershirts and socks. i know, terribly boring, but WHAT ELSE do you give someone who has everything and wants for nothing? i just so happened to open the mail tonight and moore's had sent me a $50 gift card for being a loyal shopper and i threw that in his card, too. honestly, both he and i have everything...what else could there be needed?
materialism is just ridiculous.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
0 comments:
Post a Comment