spark this

i log my calories at sparkpeople.com.

for the last 12 hrs, their website has been down.

ordinarily that wouldnt be a problem, but i rely heavily on my calorie counts and recording them and meeting my daily caloric limits and at the present time, i have no idea where i stand.  am i close to 1700?  not close?  what? 

it drives me nuts not to know.  usually at night, i find i'm trying to cram in over 700 calories to meet my daily requirements and that's probably not a good thing.  it's best to space all that shit out, i realise, but during the day i'm not as *hungry* as i feel at night.  i can eat a good breakfast and lunch and be ok till just before class and at that point i'm usually around 700-900 calories and feeling good.  it's from 6pm onward where it kinda goes sideways and the pressure's on to meet those calories.

i know, i know, i could eat more during the day and a smaller meal at night, but i do enjoy having a large amount of calories in the bank, so to speak, so that i can enjoy my dinner, possibly occasionally have red meat (which is a huge calorie zapper) or if i feel like a beer, i can have one.  ya know?

i really should go back to the old fashioned way of journalling and stop relying on the internet...

it's hard to let go of it. 

so until tomorrow, i'm going to wonder where i end up.  i suppose it's ok...i'm going for dinner tomorrow night, so maybe it's a good thing that i'm saving up?  who knows.