annoying crazy maker

i am still tenatively going to yyc with my crazy friend sandra.  we used to walk together quite a bit back in 2008 in the spring and she's never quite let that go.  ever since then, she's gone on endlessly that she's tried to replace me as a walking partner but nobody was as good as me.  uhm, what?  blowingsmokeupmyass huh?  i dont get it.  it's always with the manipulative shit and i hate it.  she's always going on that she was absolutely the fittest when we walked together...i only have so many hours in a day for crazy shit.

i got sick and tired of being the walking psychologist to her insecurities.  and she is one person who never quite learns from her mistakes.  case in point, she keeps going back to the guy who beats her and calls her useless.  so she will always update me and say "i did it again...why do i keep going back to him when he treats me this badly?"  i never have answers.  i just think she is stupid.  i mean, really, if you are going to let someone physically and mentally abuse you and you are aware of it and fucking tell everyone about it, then you are fucking dumber than words.  i dont want to hear it.  it's like being aware that your stove burner is red hot, but touching it and then bitching about it for hours and then going and touching it again once the scar heals.

evidently this chick has never learned from mistakes.

i know that some people out there are like seductive kryptonite.  you know they are bad, but you cant help but be attracted to them.  we've all done it.  i can say i have too.  but i really draw the line at being attracted to someone who constantly berates you and slaps you around.

i also draw the line at being the counsellor and having to hear about it.  professional help isnt that much these days and when you work where sandra does, you have a kickass benefits program that will pay for it...so why not invest the time and money into counselling instead of being attracted to the wrong person?  i guess i'll never make a good counsellor because i have little time and patience for people who refuse to learn life's lessons.  christallmighty, the lesson is constantly being spoon fed to her and she refuses to absorb anything, but wants me to feel sorry for her...i just cant.

so now she is bugging me wanting to go walking because the weather is improving.  walks are always in her neck of the city and are on her time.  yes, i need the exercise, but when it's accompanied by crazy talk, i just have little patience for it.  i'm going to have to delicately side step that conversation...

fuck, why do i attract the fucking crazies?