fitness fuckery

i need a revamping of my schedule with fitness.  lately my 4:45-5:35 class has been the absolute shits.  i have been going to this class since march and it seems that ever since stacey got a new job, the class has been going to shit on a sidewalk.  we dont have weights anymore because bikini is running concurrently in the adjacent studio, we have guest instructors who are bulemic alcoholics who are out to lunch mentally and forget what we're doing or have any kind of structure in the class (long story short, it's a fucking waste of 50mins), and the old birds in the class always complain about the same fucking things every class: the temp of the studio ("it's hot in here"..."isnt it hot?"..."how do we change the thermostat?" and it's the same comments on a loop to every person entering the building before class), and the same fucking cd is played DAILY.  needless to say, i'm at my breaking point with it and i just want to run screaming.

i'm tired of being expected to show up at an exercise class out of guilt because the older birds wont have the class if they dont have 8 people in attendance.  in the meantime, my work out is compromised.  so far this fucking class has had its weights taken away from it, has had shoddy replacement instructors, and in general, i feel as if it's just not challenging enough.

what's worse is that davina has asked me to be in this class with her, yet she fails to show at most of the classes.  so here i am in a class for her sake, not mine, and she's not there.  of course i dont need her there but when someone is asking you to come to a class they're going to, the least they could do is SHOW THE FUCK UP.  then she's asked me to run with her and three other girls at 6am a couple of days a week....well, the three of them are not runners at all.  i cant fault them for that, but if i'm going to needlessly get my ass out of bed at 6am, i'm going to want to fucking RUN, not lamely jog 10 metres and then walk until everyone else catches their breath.  i am not the one who works at 8am, so why should i even get up?  and even if i did, why would i want to "run" with people who are not at my fitness level?  i realise that sounds incredibly rude and it's not my intention, but it's far better to be CHALLENGED in fitness than bored off your ass. believe me, if i wanted to walk, i'd fucking go out my front door and do it at a sane time of the day, rather than get up at 5:30am and drive 1/2 way across the city to do it with people i'm not even friends with.

i could also see davina jamming out of many runs, citing injuries or being tired.  she does that shit all the time, and seeing as i'm having one of those months where patience is very thin, i'd be quite angry if that bullshit started up again.  and knowing how things are and how past patterns predict future behaviours, i know damned well she would be excusing herself out of exercising.

i am also not going fucking walking with sandra either.  i dont need to get in my car and drive 1/2 way across the city to kin coulee to walk for an hour on HER schedule.  no thanks.  again, i can leave my front door and walk here.  fuck, i can do stairs in my neighbourhood.  you certainly dont see her coming to nech to do the stairs in my neck of the woods, yet i should be going to her side of the city to do it?  fuck it.  and she is a notorious jammer, too, so i'd be all set to go and she'd suddenly have cramps or some other bullshit.  god forbid i ever gave those excuses, but she can freely use them without feeling remotely guilty.  i know that i'm going to hear piles of guilt trips over not walking with her and how boo hoo hoo we have to go and do that.  again, fuck it!

so my fitness schedule is going to be as follows: 

• mon: cardio FIT (Fitness In Thirty), hot yoga
• tues: arms FIT
• wed: abs FIT, hot yoga
• thurs: stairs
• fri: running
• sat (off)
• sun: running

all this will be done on MY schedule, not any one else's.  and if they dont like it, they can all fuck right off.