well, i finally sucked it up and emailed kb and reconnected with her. after a bunch of girl shit and silliness and awkward run-ins, things are back on track. i was reminded by D that sometimes we have to be the bigger person and just reach out to others rather than waiting for them to do it. in this case, kb isnt the type to do the reaching. i can accept that. sometimes you reach, sometimes you are reached out to. (awkward)
i emailed her yesterday afternoon and she responded, which was more than i expected. it sounds like she is taking her life in a newer direction and going to church...i'm trying not to be judgy because we all have to do what we have to do, but organized religion as a whole irritates me. i have a hard time believing in something just because someone at the front of the congregation says so. i also dont appreciate the hypocrisy that goes on in the congregation...either you are walking the talk or you are a fucking hypocrite.
i think it's the way i was raised or something but i have a huge reluctance about church. yes, i appreciate that i converted to cath-o-holic-ism and i really question why i did that. acceptance was not the right answer. i should have waited a while before making that choice and diving in headfirst because i really dont agree with 99% of what they preach. i'm glad i havent set foot in the church since dec 2005.
my dad was quite vocal against being brainwashed by religions. in grade nine i was asked to go to some church youth group thing and it was fun. of course i didnt fit in, but i was happy to be there. before or after (i dont know which), i heard my dad expressing irritation over me possibly being brainwashed and that he didnt need that in the family. i also remember pulling out a bible once during a bad thunderstorm to read some passage or the other (wtf for i will never know) and my mom gave me the stink eye over it. there definitely was a look of disgust on her face when i did that.
anyway, kb is going to church now and leading scrapbooking bible study. i have no idea wtf that is, and i'm not too sure i'd care to find out. i'm sure it's a group of ladies meeting over their scrapbooks and then reading a bible passage or two. sorry to say it, but it's not up my alley at all. i have never been the crafty type. kb is and she's good at it.
so she is taking her life in a positive direction and quitting drinking. she didnt tell me that, but this place is fucking small and people talk. we have a lot of the same friends who have confirmed that to me. her husband, like mine, has a problem with booze. i think she turned to the church and to sobriety to figure shit out. i think it has been incredibly difficult for her because her old drinking friends suddenly have been dropping off the map. i get that because i've lived it too. shit happens.
i think that kb has always been a kinder person and someone i respect. i'm just glad that things are patched up and hopefully we can reconnect.
but not over the bible.
well, i finally sucked it up and emailed kb and reconnected with her. after a bunch of girl shit and silliness and awkward run-ins, things are back on track. i was reminded by D that sometimes we have to be the bigger person and just reach out to others rather than waiting for them to do it. in this case, kb isnt the type to do the reaching. i can accept that. sometimes you reach, sometimes you are reached out to. (awkward)
i emailed her yesterday afternoon and she responded, which was more than i expected. it sounds like she is taking her life in a newer direction and going to church...i'm trying not to be judgy because we all have to do what we have to do, but organized religion as a whole irritates me. i have a hard time believing in something just because someone at the front of the congregation says so. i also dont appreciate the hypocrisy that goes on in the congregation...either you are walking the talk or you are a fucking hypocrite.
i think it's the way i was raised or something but i have a huge reluctance about church. yes, i appreciate that i converted to cath-o-holic-ism and i really question why i did that. acceptance was not the right answer. i should have waited a while before making that choice and diving in headfirst because i really dont agree with 99% of what they preach. i'm glad i havent set foot in the church since dec 2005.
my dad was quite vocal against being brainwashed by religions. in grade nine i was asked to go to some church youth group thing and it was fun. of course i didnt fit in, but i was happy to be there. before or after (i dont know which), i heard my dad expressing irritation over me possibly being brainwashed and that he didnt need that in the family. i also remember pulling out a bible once during a bad thunderstorm to read some passage or the other (wtf for i will never know) and my mom gave me the stink eye over it. there definitely was a look of disgust on her face when i did that.
anyway, kb is going to church now and leading scrapbooking bible study. i have no idea wtf that is, and i'm not too sure i'd care to find out. i'm sure it's a group of ladies meeting over their scrapbooks and then reading a bible passage or two. sorry to say it, but it's not up my alley at all. i have never been the crafty type. kb is and she's good at it.
so she is taking her life in a positive direction and quitting drinking. she didnt tell me that, but this place is fucking small and people talk. we have a lot of the same friends who have confirmed that to me. her husband, like mine, has a problem with booze. i think she turned to the church and to sobriety to figure shit out. i think it has been incredibly difficult for her because her old drinking friends suddenly have been dropping off the map. i get that because i've lived it too. shit happens.
i think that kb has always been a kinder person and someone i respect. i'm just glad that things are patched up and hopefully we can reconnect.
but not over the bible.
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