i still havent had caffiene yet. ok, i have had it in the form of diet soda but i have not willingly purchased or consumed a coffee with caffiene in it. one day i couldnt resist and bought a decaf latte, but it was decaf. big step for me. this is coming from the girl who drank nearly a pot of full on caffiene a day. i was going through a pound of coffee a week! it's a wonder i wasnt getting headaches and major withdrawl symptoms, however if i experienced them, they were obviously so minor they didnt warrant any concern. my full on daily coffee pot consumption habit was probably a year or two in the making.
i found that coffee made me too twitchy but there are afternoons where i utterly crave it. today i went out and ran errands and passed by the drive through starbucks and sighed. oh how it would have been great to drink a decaf latte with sugar free caramel!! even now i think about it and drool a bit.
i'm really not sure why i'm punishing myself in this manner. i should just switch back to caffiene and be done with it, but in a way it's that stupid stubborn trait i have to do exactly the opposite of what i desire. i dont know why i do that. it's not like i'm going to win a medal for not drinking coffee. nobody cares, ffs. it's just a self-driven desire to hold back on one thing.
and really, of all the things that are bad for me in my life, coffee is the least harmful. if only i could adopt that stance with beer.
sigh.
Thursday, December 03, 2009
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i still havent had caffiene yet. ok, i have had it in the form of diet soda but i have not willingly purchased or consumed a coffee with caffiene in it. one day i couldnt resist and bought a decaf latte, but it was decaf. big step for me. this is coming from the girl who drank nearly a pot of full on caffiene a day. i was going through a pound of coffee a week! it's a wonder i wasnt getting headaches and major withdrawl symptoms, however if i experienced them, they were obviously so minor they didnt warrant any concern. my full on daily coffee pot consumption habit was probably a year or two in the making.
i found that coffee made me too twitchy but there are afternoons where i utterly crave it. today i went out and ran errands and passed by the drive through starbucks and sighed. oh how it would have been great to drink a decaf latte with sugar free caramel!! even now i think about it and drool a bit.
i'm really not sure why i'm punishing myself in this manner. i should just switch back to caffiene and be done with it, but in a way it's that stupid stubborn trait i have to do exactly the opposite of what i desire. i dont know why i do that. it's not like i'm going to win a medal for not drinking coffee. nobody cares, ffs. it's just a self-driven desire to hold back on one thing.
and really, of all the things that are bad for me in my life, coffee is the least harmful. if only i could adopt that stance with beer.
sigh.
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