Thursday, August 05, 2010
FML
so i'm sitting there taking a brief rest before resuming my sets and he comes up and starts talking to me. i'm not there to socialize. i have my earphones in and music cranked and generally i avoid eye contact. i am not there to make friends and influence people, i'm there to work out. and yes, having friends is always nice, but i'm not on the market to seek friends, especially of the male persuasion, thanks.
this guy starts talking to me and i have to say "pardon me?" because i have the earphones in. i rip them out and he starts asking me what i'm doing and working on and whether he can work out with me. at first i thought he was referring to using the pec dec, but he meant that he wanted to work out WITH me. oooooh, i seeeeeee. so then i said that i was almost done and ready to go for a run (which was true) and was kind of panicked because i'm not wanting a male friend who has other intents (and i'm not being conceited but why else would a guy suddenly strike up a conversation at a gym, other than for fucking?). so then he asks me if i can make a work out for him and i kind of laugh and look at his bulging biceps and tell him that i think it looks to me as if he has it all under control. we make idle chat with him telling me that i should eat a lot of eggs and run in the mornings instead of the afternoon, advice i didnt solicit, but appreciated nonetheless, and then we parted ways. more like, i quickly finished my set and took off out of there and tried to run off the anxiety i felt over having this brief conversation.
today i went earlier to the gym specifically to avoid him. i did my workout in the upper part of the gym, and seeing as it was abs, it was ok. i can do my shit up there without being in the juicehead section and while i was there, did cardio as well. well, wouldnt you know...i forgot my workout book at the cardio machine and had to go back to retrieve it on the way out...and fucking ran right into that juicer again. so then he says ''where have you been? why didnt you wait for me?" and i'm thinking WOAH, BUDDY because it hasnt ever been established that we are workout partners. so i just brushed it off and told him i did abs and wouldnt you know, he's doing abs too, but at least i was on the way out and not in, otherwise i'd be saddled with a workout partner i didnt ask to have.
i'm at this quandry which really isnt a quandry, but it's more of an uncomfortable situation i didnt ask for. i really dont want to be fucking talking to anyone and i really dont need a workout buddy who seems more intent on undressing me with his eyes. and yes, it would be neat to have someone who is clearly interested in fitness working out with me and motivating me and perhaps finding new things to do, but when it's a guy....well, i just have issues with that. and it's not like i dont trust myself, but i really dont trust other men and their intentions. he's not looking for a friend in my opinion, he's looking for a date. and i really hate that awkward conversation about being taken and i wonder how soon i have to interject it into this new relationship i havent asked for.
by all rights, he's probably really nice, but i dont want another friend. i'd prefer to get in the gym, do as i want, and leave. and i really dont want to have to switch up my time to do it...even tho i've been contemplating going to the gym in the am's now because it does seem to eat up the rest of my afternoons...
anyway, it's just another annoying development and makes me wish (only momentarily) that i was back at the women's only place where there was no bullshit (except for girl shit).
so i was in the gym yesterday working it out. i was on the pec dec taking a break between sets when this guy walked in. i've seen him around before because he is fairly beefy and not hard to look at and is probably the biggest juicehead in the steroid room i work out in.
so i'm sitting there taking a brief rest before resuming my sets and he comes up and starts talking to me. i'm not there to socialize. i have my earphones in and music cranked and generally i avoid eye contact. i am not there to make friends and influence people, i'm there to work out. and yes, having friends is always nice, but i'm not on the market to seek friends, especially of the male persuasion, thanks.
this guy starts talking to me and i have to say "pardon me?" because i have the earphones in. i rip them out and he starts asking me what i'm doing and working on and whether he can work out with me. at first i thought he was referring to using the pec dec, but he meant that he wanted to work out WITH me. oooooh, i seeeeeee. so then i said that i was almost done and ready to go for a run (which was true) and was kind of panicked because i'm not wanting a male friend who has other intents (and i'm not being conceited but why else would a guy suddenly strike up a conversation at a gym, other than for fucking?). so then he asks me if i can make a work out for him and i kind of laugh and look at his bulging biceps and tell him that i think it looks to me as if he has it all under control. we make idle chat with him telling me that i should eat a lot of eggs and run in the mornings instead of the afternoon, advice i didnt solicit, but appreciated nonetheless, and then we parted ways. more like, i quickly finished my set and took off out of there and tried to run off the anxiety i felt over having this brief conversation.
today i went earlier to the gym specifically to avoid him. i did my workout in the upper part of the gym, and seeing as it was abs, it was ok. i can do my shit up there without being in the juicehead section and while i was there, did cardio as well. well, wouldnt you know...i forgot my workout book at the cardio machine and had to go back to retrieve it on the way out...and fucking ran right into that juicer again. so then he says ''where have you been? why didnt you wait for me?" and i'm thinking WOAH, BUDDY because it hasnt ever been established that we are workout partners. so i just brushed it off and told him i did abs and wouldnt you know, he's doing abs too, but at least i was on the way out and not in, otherwise i'd be saddled with a workout partner i didnt ask to have.
i'm at this quandry which really isnt a quandry, but it's more of an uncomfortable situation i didnt ask for. i really dont want to be fucking talking to anyone and i really dont need a workout buddy who seems more intent on undressing me with his eyes. and yes, it would be neat to have someone who is clearly interested in fitness working out with me and motivating me and perhaps finding new things to do, but when it's a guy....well, i just have issues with that. and it's not like i dont trust myself, but i really dont trust other men and their intentions. he's not looking for a friend in my opinion, he's looking for a date. and i really hate that awkward conversation about being taken and i wonder how soon i have to interject it into this new relationship i havent asked for.
by all rights, he's probably really nice, but i dont want another friend. i'd prefer to get in the gym, do as i want, and leave. and i really dont want to have to switch up my time to do it...even tho i've been contemplating going to the gym in the am's now because it does seem to eat up the rest of my afternoons...
anyway, it's just another annoying development and makes me wish (only momentarily) that i was back at the women's only place where there was no bullshit (except for girl shit).

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